My big boys....

My precious big boys Parker and Beckham.  What are they up to?

Well, my precious Parker (6) is just learning how to read and write from kindergarten!  

He is ready to officially join a soccer team!  

He is the most gentle and quiet spirit.  He hardly ever raises his voice and I absolutely think that is the best.

The other day I told him to put his clothes on in my bedroom after he and Beckham were getting out of my bathtub....he said "why because I'm dripping with excitedness?"  Lol...he's such a funny silly boy.

He loves to tell jokes and to tease people, I absolutely love that about him.

He loves to show how strong and fast he is.

Oh!  And he is doing soooooo great with speech!!  I think he will be dismissed soon!  I am so pleased!

Parker, my heart is so full of love being your mommy.  I love you so much and am so thankful to the Lord that He gave me you to raise, love and learn about.  You bring so much silliness and laughter to this family.  I know I make a lot of mistakes, but I hope at the end of the day you know that your mommy loves you deeply.

Beckham...my sweet boo(4) is doing really great in preschool.  He knows how to write his "name"...which is a grouping of a bunch of letters starting with a B :). It's really cute.

Beckham is the most generous little kid.  Just to make Parker happy, Beckham would give him anything.  One time he had $10 for his birthday he gave Parker over half of it so that Parker would be excited too.  It's really so so precious.

Beckham's speech is still pretty rough, but I am working with him home and it's starting to really help!

Beckham is such an incredible big brother.  He seriously loves Jett so so much.  He will spend so much time just playing with him and playing with him.  He loves that baby.

Beckham, I love you deeply.  You are such a sweet precious little boy and I'm so thankful to the Lord that he gave me you next.  You bring such a bright light to the family.  I love you so so much and am so thankful for you!!

Jett is 10 months

My little Jett, I cannot put into words how much joy you bring this family!!!  You want to know how? Well this is one way...you are just SO CUTE!!!!

Well, sometimes when you eat dinner you start to let the spirit flow and you start dancing from your booty up...I started to sing "I can't stop this feeling" every time you do it and you think it's so great.

You clap your hands when I sing "if you're happy and you know it". 

You stand up in your crib now and it's so precious!!!

You are crawling all over the place and the first places you would crawl to were outlets and cabinets...got daddy on his toes baby proofing the house!!!

You loooooove to laugh.  From someone saying "Boo!" to your big brothers tickling you...you just love to laugh.

You also are VERY suspicious of ceiling fans and ceiling lights...you keep looking at them like they are out to get you.  Your daddy might have told you some lies about them too, so that's probably why you think that 😜.

Going to bed is sometimes super easy or super hard.  If you get any kind of nap after 4 I might as well be ready for you to be up till I go to bed.  Kinda weird...none of your other brothers did that!! 

You also squeal at the very top of your lungs and think it is the best!!!  Sometimes you do it in quiet places so I have to plug you up with your paci....which you still love :)

You are eating really well now...oatmeal, scrambled eggs, broccoli, sweet potatoes, whatever I put to your mouth pretty much.  

Well, I think that's all I can think of...I love you anyway you are, Jett, no matter what you do, I love you just the way you are, I love you because you're you!!!  

Big weekend for Jett!

Crawled really well!

Clapped his hands

Road the power wheel with beckham

Touched an alligator!

All.in.one.weekend.  He's exhausted :)

I love...

Beckham's hand print art he made in the shower today

That my table centerpiece no longer has tealights but dinasours in it :)

Jett update...

Jett E. Pants.  What was my little man up to at 8 months?  Well, here we go:

1. He had 2 teeth
2. JUST started eating yogurt and apple sauce
3. When he's crying in the car, I can sing "If you're happy and you know it" or "How much is that baby in the carseat", and he will start smiling and laughing!  It's so cute
4. If you say, "put your hands in the air, Jett" he puts his hands up...

5.  He says "dadadadadadad" and "bubububububub"
6.  Is ALL over the board on sleep...some nights he is up every two hours other nights he might sleep 12 hours.
7.  He.is.so.so.so.happy.all.of.the.time.

Now at ALMOST 9 months old he....
1. Has 3 teeth and I think is working on another, given my nigh sleep last night :)
2. Sleep is the same...I never know what to expect :)
3. He.is.so.so.so.happy.all.of.the.time.
4.  When you sing to him, he starts grinning, laughing, and whaling his hands.

5.  He is eating better!  He actually likes his yogurt and apple sauce, or avocado, or banana.  He also super loved broccoli the other night!
6. SO SO close to crawling
7. He waves

Jett

My oh so preciously sweet Jett.  He will be 7 months tomorrow!!!  Oh that sweet boy, what is he up to??
-he has 2 teeth!
-he still takes 1-2 naps during the day, the mid afternoon nap is typically 2-4 hours
-he is happy all of the time!!!!
-he babbles bububububububu
-he isn't eating table scraps yet...still gags :)
-he sits up great
-he loves pretty much everyone.  He doesn't have the separation stuff like my other two had...YIPPEEE!!  :)
-he looooves music and "if you're happy and you now it"
-he thinks balloons are so.so.funny
-he loves Sancho
-he loves his paci
-he does fine in his car seat
-50% of the time I can lay him in his crib awake with his paci and he will fall asleep....though, I still LOVE to rock him.
I seriously love this child.  He has captured my heart the way the other two did, and I'm just loving it!!!!

His Mercies ARE new every morning....

I'm just sitting here with a heavy heart...heavy with a lot of emotion, and some conflicting.  I have a heart of gratitude, an anxious heart, I'm even feeling a little bit of homesickness.  Gratitude is what I want to focus on though.  You see my God's mercies are new every morning.  I get a fresh start every.single.morning.  Yesterday I went to bed with a heavy heart, but in a sad defeated way.  I felt like a failure as a mother.  I was snappy with the boys, and in general not a super fun person to be around.  I went to bed feeling like I had severed my sweet relationship with my boys and they would never ask me to play with them again and be distant.  I was nostalgic as well, reading through old blogs of when Parker was 2.5 and all of my stories of blissful playing and loving each other.  So, you can only imagine after a day that I griped and barked all day, I felt like a reeeeeeeeeal winner as a mom.  As I went to bed that night, I gave myself the infamous "I will do better tomorrow" talk.  I will NOT do this, and I will NOT do that....I....I.....I.....I.....and then that soft quiet voice whispered in my ear...YOU cannot do any of what you want to achieve....it is HE that is within you.  I remembered that when I set out to make myself this perfect mom and this perfect wife and friend and perfect etc etc etc, I end up failing.  So I laid my mind before The Lord.  "Father, you must fix my mistakes as a mother".  I must say, HIS mercies truly are new every morning.  My precious Parker came into my room this morning, and snuggled with me in bed, and then we had the most joy filled FUN day of just playing.  Jumping on the trampoline, LAUGHING, and doing whatever they wanted.  Then, I had to go run a few errands and Beckham wanted to go with me...just me and my boo...and why did he want to go with me "because I love momma".  Ahhhh, melt my heart.  Everyday is a new day....even if I am a big mess up, I know that my Heavenly Father will cover my weaknesses in my children's hearts.     Father, thankyou for today.  Thankyou that I got to love and play and cherish my children...and thankyou that the days that I fail, I can have the confidence that your mercies will be new in the morning.