Five years of being "mommy"...

Well, today is over....my little boy turned five today.  Oh, five years...it's amazing how when you look back you only see the blissful memories.  I love that.  I love that I only remember the joy filled moments and not the "terrible 3's" type moments.  :)

So here we are and my Parkerman is such an amazing joy to raise.  He has turned into quite the little boy, and I stand in awe at God's grace.  God's grace in seeing that even though I have my "terrible mommy" moments, Parker still loves me so unconditionally.  That even though I have made oodles of mistakes in "judgement calls", God has produced good.  It shows me, even in this early stage of parenting, that no parent...can EVER take credit for how their kids turn out...good or bad....and it reminds me, that though he is such a precious child now, the battle is not won...I must stay on my knees every day, praying over his character, his heart to fall in love with Jesus, and for his mind to hunger and thirst for righteousness.

Raising children is such a refining event.  God breaks me on a daily basis...showing me that I cannot do this on my own, and I cannot do this in my own power.  I come to him broken so often...."God, please produce good in these children.", "are you sure I am qualified for this job?"  :).  He assures me, that because I have children, He thinks I am qualified...so I must turn my eyes upon Jesus.

Parkerman, today was a blast.  I had fun celebrating YOU, and rejoicing with you over your special day.  I enjoyed making it special and I am so so thankful that God gave me you.  I hope that just as I do, you will look back on your life and remember the joy, and the fun that we shared and see and feel the intense love that I have for you.  I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as I'm living, my baby you'll be!!!!!!  :)

Love,
Mommy