The small things....

I'm just sitting here, sipping coffee watching my sweet boys play. I had to sit down and write this down, because I am in the moment...I wanted to remember small moments like this as they are sweet memories. They are so fun to watch because Beckham is sitting letting Nika the boxer dog lick his toy and Beckham will lean over and try and look at Nika's face...so intrigued by her and her big ugly face :). It's so fun to sit on the floor with music playing and dancing and singing with our little instruments with them. It's so fun to sit on the couch with Parker arm-to-arm with a toy and having him ask me "Is this fun, Mommy??"...Yes baby....this is so fun, spending time with you and your bubba...being silly and playing. We are doing nothing this morning...just being. It's special- I love it. OH, and before I end- Beckham ate dog poo today....it's a first- had to write it down :)

SWWEEET Moment

Today, I was doing some Bible study while the boys napped and I heard Parker's door open and then little soft foot steps and then I looked to my left and there was my sweet Parkerman standing there looking at me- he looked at me with a tentative look- and when I got a huge excited smile on my face and said "Hiiiii baby!!!!", he got a huge excited smile on his face and came over to me and wrapped his arms around my waist and just huuuuuuuuggggggged me. THAT was such an unexpected WONDERFUL moment as I am usually the one that initiates all the huggin' and kissin' and to have him just come to me and wrap his arms around my waist....OHHHH....it was heaven!!

He's 13 months

It's so funny- I sat down to write about my sweet little Beckham and realized that today he is EXACTLY 13 months! I don't take pictures anymore on his month birthday's or come blog every month, but I accidentally did it on his 13 month birthday! ha! :) Happy birthday boo bear!

We went to the ranch this past weekend and I was just watching my little bubba walk around being SOOOO busy and playing and enjoying this new little world he is in and it hit me that I am letting HIS little life fly by! Parker's life, I cherished every single little itty bitty moment- but since Beckham is the second and life will be 'easier' when he get's older I have been focused on "in a few more months life will be so much easier, etc etc etc." This past weekend I realized that THIS part of his life....THIS VERY PART...13 months is such a sweet innocent PRECIOUS time and I am letting it fly by! When Beckham is older I know without any doubt in my mind, I will miss these tender times of his childhood...that is, if I don't stop and watch and experience life with him. Suddenly it made all of the frustrations of having a 13 month, get into everything he's not supposed to, cry when I leave the room, too little to rough house with Parker but wants to and ends up getting hurt, little Beckham and turned it into pure J-O-Y! This is such a FUN part of a little child's life and I was missing it! When they walk like a mummy and when they LONG for you to spend time with them and when they look to you after doing something they are proud of! It's heaven!

Am I doing the right thing?

Every single day I wake up to be a mommy to my little pieces of heaven is another day that I have to struggle with the battle of self doubting. "Am I doing the right thing??" is what I ask myself every time I make a decision regarding my boys. Is this behavior that I should discipline for or is it just him being a kid, should I say yes or should I say no, should I be silly and goofy should I be serious and firm. You name it, I question it. Lately, the Lord has been speaking to me so much about this area of self doubt. He gave me a verse, Psalm 32:8, "I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you". Every time I read that verse it brings such strong emotion to my heart. I have come to the Lord crying out- "Father, what should I do, I don't want to make a mistake, I don't want to 'screw' my children up, I only want to do what is RIGHT and good for my children" and HE came back with "I will instruct....teach...counsel...and watch over you". HE....THE GOD OF THE UNIVERSE is going to teach, counsel and watch over me!!!! I don't have to rehearse in my mind or predict what my children are going to do and how I am going to handle it....I just have to trust and believe in my heart of hearts that the Almighty GOD is going to HIMSELF step in and teach, counsel and watch over me. Wow, what an amazing God I serve!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT AN AMAZING GOD! Then I was reading Exodus 33 and I came to verse 14 where God tells Moses, who is needing huge guidance to direct him while taking the Israelites to the Promise Land, "...My presence will go with you and I will give you rest". Wow....not only Moses am I going to make sure you get there, but MY PRESENCE will be the one to get you there...not one of my angels, not a really smart man.....ME....the ALMIGHTY GOD OF THE UNIVERSE! It spoke such huge instruction to me-that I no longer have to question what I do or what I will do, but that my GOD will come through when I need Him to.

PRAISE GOD to whom all blessings flow....praise Him all people here below...

Booger Bear & Boo Bear Theiss

My boo bear- a little over a year old and what is he up to?!?!?

-He is waving, clapping and WALKING!
-When playing he will often look back at me after he has accomplished something to make sure I saw....he gets the BIGGEST grin on his face and then turns back to continue.
-He HATES it when we leave the room
-He sleeps around 12 hours at night...goes to bed at 7pm.
-He would LOVE to take 2 naps, but since his big brother goes down at noon, mommy makes him stay up so that they will BOTH go down at the same time
-He just started standing up on his own
-He has 3 teeth fully in and one top that just broke through
-He has been going through a super fussy stage...mad at life! :)
-He loves music and loves to play his little shaking musical instruments
-He says "uh-oh" and then a bunch of other babble stuff- he might have said some other real words, but I can't tell!
-He LOVES his big bubba!
-He still has his pacifier- however, mommy is trying to phase it out
-He is sitting forward in his carseat now
-His favorite food is chicken nuggets (he has become quite the picky eater!)
-He loves outside and loves the swinging at the park
-He does great at riding in the front seat of the powerwheel
-I has QUITE A FIERCE temper....when he doesn't get his way he gets MMMMAAAADDDD!!!!


What's my Booger Bear up to?!?!?! He is a little over 2.5 years old and.......
-He is talking up a STORM! This child talks all day long, "look mommy, watch me, what's that, WHOOOAH," are some of the usual's, but he pretty much talks like a normal person except it might be hard for the normal person to understand him :)
- He LOVES to drive his "big truck". "Drive my big truck, mommy?" is what I hear EVERY-SINGLE-WAKING-HOUR! Literally :) We will be driving in the neighborhood home from Wednesday night church....it is pitch black and 8:30 at night and he will ask to drive his big truck. ha!
-He drives his truck off road to the park...super fun...and I ride my bike to keep up
-He goes to bed anywhere from 7:30-8 and wakes up around 6:30-7
-He has gone through a spell of waking up at night crying....thinking it's bad dreams
-He LOVES his little bubba, however he is entirely too rough with him right now. Pushes him over trying to rough-house and then Beckham gets hurt!
-He loves playing the instruments to music too
-He loves to pee in the grass and I will sometimes catch him trying to in public...oops...bad habit!
-He looooooves Jumpaloozas
-He is starting to get where he is not so shy at "fun" places. At Chuck E. Cheese he gave Chuck the rat a high-five...something he would never have done in the past- he would have screamed!
-He loves his room and his tent...wants everyone to go in his room
-He loves to sit on the couch and watch movies at night. This is when I get snuggle time....LOVE IT!!!


Ok, well, I think this is a good update....lovin' these boys so much I can't stand it!!!! They are SUCH a treasure to me and I am SOOO grateful that God entrusted ME and Blake with them!!!!! HEAVEN!!!

One year ago today....

Beckham,

This time, one year ago, your daddy and I were rushing around getting ready to drive to the hospital to go meet you for the very first time. It was exhilarating and scary all at the same time! Here I was- already a mother to a 20 month old and loving my life with him and just him....I couldn't imagine loving another baby as much as him and then midnight hit and it was October 8th and I heard your scream for the first time. Wow- did my life change. I will be honest- the first few months of your life you were not exactly the dream baby....however, it was amazing how even though you were so grumpy and frustrated all of the time- when you would stare at me, I would fall in love with you all over again. Then- I will never forget. We were sitting in the back seat of my car in the Wal-Mart parking lot and I was feeding you...Parker watching a movie....and you pulled off on your own and smiled at me....oh my goodness, you had me hooked! From then on you officially became my "boo bear". The easiest way for me to get you to smile was to say "boooooo" while changing your diaper. So, boo bear it was. I was even amazed at how high pitched my voice could get when I would see you. You had become the-happiest-baby-on-this-Earth....and your smile was so contagious people couldn't help but laugh when they saw you. Now, today, as I am sitting here on the eve of your 1st birthday, I can't believe it has been one solid year of Beckham! Boo- I love you more than you will ever know and I can't imagine life without you. I can't wait till morning hits and I can go grab you out of your bed and hug and kiss you on your special day. Tomorrow, Boo....it is ALL ABOUT YOU.

I LOVE YOU!!!!
Mommy

Life isn't always a picnic

Today, on my way to the duck pond with my little boys to have our dinner picnic, we passed the elementary school where I saw a little football team playing. It hit me- so often when we have little children it's so easy to think "once they get older life will get easier"...well, I'm not so sure about that now. When kids get older they start getting into sports, music, school, birthday parties, swim team, etc. Moms are running from one place to the next and a picnic at the duck pond for dinner is the last thing on their agenda. It really caught me off guard today. I am in such an innocently sweet period of life with my children. We sat at the duck pond, eating our dinner, experiencing life together. When Parker was done, he got up and was running around pushing his grocery cart and then BEGGED to run across the little bridge they have. What lit up my little boys eyes, was getting to run across the bridge...wow, so preciously sweet. So innocent...
We enjoyed ourselves a little longer and then loaded Parker's grocery cart up with our dinner items and then walked back to the car. On my way back to the house, I thought...I can see myself 8 years from now, life whirling by, driving by the duck pond seeing a mother out there with her little pre-school children and missing so desperately these years. What a JOY FILLED time of life these sweet tender years are; watching my boys experiencing life with such excitement and joy. There is nothing quite as wonderful or amazing. Well, we pulled the car into the garage and I got in the back seat to start getting Beckham out and I just sat there for a second making funny noises with my mouth. Both of my boys were staring deep into my eyes, laughing so hard. They think I am the cat's meow. They think I am so funny and whatever silly thing I do brings so much joy to them. Mmm....will it always be this way? Doubtably. They will grow up and it will be harder for me to make them laugh...I won't always be able to snuggle with them curled up on the couch watching a movie together.

Slow down....watch your children grow....don't wish this time away....cherish each day.