His Mercies ARE new every morning....

I'm just sitting here with a heavy heart...heavy with a lot of emotion, and some conflicting.  I have a heart of gratitude, an anxious heart, I'm even feeling a little bit of homesickness.  Gratitude is what I want to focus on though.  You see my God's mercies are new every morning.  I get a fresh start every.single.morning.  Yesterday I went to bed with a heavy heart, but in a sad defeated way.  I felt like a failure as a mother.  I was snappy with the boys, and in general not a super fun person to be around.  I went to bed feeling like I had severed my sweet relationship with my boys and they would never ask me to play with them again and be distant.  I was nostalgic as well, reading through old blogs of when Parker was 2.5 and all of my stories of blissful playing and loving each other.  So, you can only imagine after a day that I griped and barked all day, I felt like a reeeeeeeeeal winner as a mom.  As I went to bed that night, I gave myself the infamous "I will do better tomorrow" talk.  I will NOT do this, and I will NOT do that....I....I.....I.....I.....and then that soft quiet voice whispered in my ear...YOU cannot do any of what you want to achieve....it is HE that is within you.  I remembered that when I set out to make myself this perfect mom and this perfect wife and friend and perfect etc etc etc, I end up failing.  So I laid my mind before The Lord.  "Father, you must fix my mistakes as a mother".  I must say, HIS mercies truly are new every morning.  My precious Parker came into my room this morning, and snuggled with me in bed, and then we had the most joy filled FUN day of just playing.  Jumping on the trampoline, LAUGHING, and doing whatever they wanted.  Then, I had to go run a few errands and Beckham wanted to go with me...just me and my boo...and why did he want to go with me "because I love momma".  Ahhhh, melt my heart.  Everyday is a new day....even if I am a big mess up, I know that my Heavenly Father will cover my weaknesses in my children's hearts.     Father, thankyou for today.  Thankyou that I got to love and play and cherish my children...and thankyou that the days that I fail, I can have the confidence that your mercies will be new in the morning.

Jett's paci

 

 I love how this boy chews on his paci.  He can put his paci in his mouth by himself now too, and I especially love that!  He's so cute...I just love him to pieces!!!

Parker's 1st tooth

My baby has lost his first tooth.  It's so exciting and yet so heart wrenching!!  He is growing up!!!  I love that boy so much!!!

Jett E. Pants is 6 months

My precious punkin' pie is now 6.5 months old.  I cannot even begin to express through my words how much fun this child is and how much I am loving raising a little baby again.  So now that he is 6 months what is he doing?

-He still is not eating food.  I chose not to do baby food this go around and just wait for him to eat little soft chunks of table scraps.  So, he still gags when I give him anything with texture...so we shall wait!
-He is SO.INCREDIBLY.HAPPY. This child loves life and loves everyone.  He doesn't mind who is holding him and just smiles and laughs.
-He sleeps really well.  He takes 2 naps during the day and one that might very well consist of 4 hours!
-He loves his paci.  He was definitely going to be a thumb sucker, but I worked and worked to get him to take the paci and at 3 months he finally took it!  :)
-He finally is taking a bottle!  ha!  Right about the time he can start eating food!  Oh well, I'll take it.
-He is sitting up great all by himself and is so content playing with toys on the floor.
-He loves loves loves the song "if you happy and you know it"

I just love this baby.  I love holding him and rocking him.  I love reading books to him and singing to him.  It's truly such an amazing time.  Since he is just now taking a bottle, Jett has gone on a lot of dates with Blake and I...but it's been fine, because it's so fun to get some one on one time with him.  I love walking around with him in my arms because I am cherishing every little minute with him as a baby. 

New Year's Eve...

Dinner as a family...

Sparkling grape juice in fun glasses

Glow stick balls

Glow glasses

Look at Jett's face!  Haha!  He's in awe!

It was a wonderful night.  Playing games, playing glow ball and then BED!  :)

Bo Bo in the mirror

Everytime Beckham gets a bo bo, he wants to go look at it in the mirror...this past time it was on the top of his head and he asked me to take a picture of it and show him.  Hahaha...so stinking cute :)

Some Christmas favorites

Parker FINALLY got a pair of footie pjs.  He's been dying for a pair.

Doing advent with my parents and grandparents.  It was so so special.  Afterwards we opened presents and then walked around the neighborhood And looked at lights.   I was in heaven.  

A picture with my boys and Mimi and Papa ❤️❤️❤️

Jett's first Theiss/Kotch Christmas party and he slept thru it!

Getting to go drive around and look at Christmas lights with the Theiss/Kotch crew.  Lights in Fort Worth just aren't the same, so I was in hog heaven :)

Our new Christmas Eve tradition...the three Ps of Christmas Eve...1. Pjs

2. Pizza

3. Polar Express :)

Doing gingerbread houses.  Blake and Parker against beckham and momma.

This guys first Christmas ❤️❤️❤️

Having a somewhat "warm" Christmas Day to go outside and watch them ride their new peddle cars Grammy and Poppy got them.

This year has been a lot more joyful!!  I finally am starting to feel like Fort Worth is home.  The two moms I homeschool with up here are my family and God has blessed me immensely with them.  That made it easier for me to come back to as well!!!  Thankyou Lord, for a joyfilled season of celebrating Christ!!!