FEAR

“Ok, Lord, I will write, I will write!  What do you want me to write about?”....a conversation I just had with the Lord when my blog was put on my heart.  So I sat down with my iPad and the big word “FEAR” came to my mind.  So here I am, writing about fear.  I am 36 years old and for as long as I can remember FEAR has had some sort of grip on my life.  Lately God has been speaking to me on this subject.  I’ve realized that the Lord is finally....FINALLY addressing fear and anxiety in me and bringing it onto the battle ground.  When I realized this was happening I must say FEAR came rushing in.  What is this going to FEEL like, what is going to happen to me, how difficult of a battle is this going to be?  It’s crazy to me that I would have FEAR about God finally addressing FEAR in my life, but it’s true, this is a huge area of bondage that I have been begging the Lord to address for the majority of my life.
God has opened my eyes to some things about fear:
1. Fear is a sin.  You may not agree, but fear is a result of not trusting God, and not believing He is sovereign and in control, and therefore is sin.
2.  Fear must be confessed- it has such a gripping hold on my life that you better believe I am confessing all.day.long.
3.  Fear needs to be brought from the darkness to the light- I do this out loud.  I tell the Lord “Father, I am afraid that , I am bringing this from the darkness to the Light, to the one who is sovereign and in control of this fear.  By doing this it not only sheds light on your sin of fear, but it strips the enemy of having any power.  So often I didn’t want to voice out loud my fears, because the enemy would hear them and haunt me with these fears...I was giving power to an enemy that has NO power against me.  Try it.  When a fear pops in your mind, for example “God, I am fearful that I have cancer, I am bringing from the darkness to the light, to the one who has power over sickness and health, who is sovereign over all things, Father forgive me for being fearful”.....saying that out loud, or whatever fear you have, brings such a freedom and a feeling of peace.
4.  Once fears have been confessed and brought from darkness to light, I leave them with the Lord and ask him to fill me with his spirit.

The more you confess a sin, the less and less you will struggle with that sin.  I am not saying this is immediate, far from immediate, but it’s through OBEDIENCE of confession that you receive miraculous healing of your bondage to fear.

When you read about miracles in the Bible, it was usually accompanied by an act of obedience by the one being healed.  The act proved the person’s FAITH.

Someone wrote that fear is “False Evidence Appearing Real”...that’s what fear is.  When you feel fear rise up in you, bring it from the darkness to the LIGHT, confess it, and allow truth to be spoken over it, and then it’s the TRUTH that will set you free.

Denver James

OH Denver James.

He is 13 months old now and is SO PRECIOUS.

-He loves breakfast bars, fruit, pretzels, and gold fish.
-He still isn't walking
-He crawls like a maniac!
-He thinks everyone is so so funny and laughs at anything
-He HATES diaper changes most of the time
-He loves outside
-He plays peak-a-boo and will say "dah-dah-dah" for peak-a-boo
-He signs "more"
-He will "buzz" your pointer finger
-He LOVES TO EAT
-He will mimic you
-He waves

This kid is the perfect exclamation point to the sentence of our life!  We love you Denver James!

Parker and Beckham

My big boys...oh how they bring so much joy to my heart.

Parker is 8 now and has a heart of absolute gold.  He is ALWAYS thinking of other people and never wanting to hurt feelings.  "Mommy, does it hurt your feelings that...." is what I hear very often.

Beckham wants to see everyone happy and he wants to be the one who makes that happen.  "Whatever, I just want my brothers to be happy" is what I hear from this precious heart a LOT.

Parker loves to build things out of wood, cardboard, plastic...anything really.  He is taking little wood working classes from an older man in our church, and he is so happy.

Beckham is our little engineer.  He will sit with legos for hours and create, create, create.  It's amazing, utterly amazing, to watch his brain work and create.

Parker just started baseball and boy is he in his element out there.  He's so happy now that he's found his spot in the sports world.

Beckham is playing soccer and LOVES it.  He's really good at it and it's been so much fun to watch him shine in his own element.

Parker is doing much much better in school now.  His reading has finally taken off and his writing is coming along SO well.  He doesn't really like school (I don't blame him- I never did either), but it's been fun doing this new curriculum with him.

Beckham is rocking it in school.  He loves to read and is doing SO well with it.  School gets monotonous, but when he's working on reading and math and activity time he enjoys it.

They both love to jump on the trampoline, they both love riding bikes, they still love parks, their motorcycles, donuts, pizza, Friday fun day, bounce houses, car washes, the dollar store, garage sales, watching movies in their bed, video games, their HAMSTER Jackson, building tents, making videos, shooting nerf guns, visiting family, powerwheels, parks and so much more. 

They are a JOY to raise, even though they are CRAZY sometimes.  I'm so thankful to the Lord that I have them with me all day everyday and get to be the one who watches them turn into the little men God created them to be.

Jett E. Pants

My Jett.  He is 2 and a half now and this kid is a hoot!  He talks non-stop and he has a will power to "do it himself" that's crazy strong!  So- what's this guy up to?

-He learned how to potty on the toilet!  Woohoo! 
-He LOVES to sit in your lap and read books
-He's a super night owl- he would stay up till midnight easily if I let him
-Everytime daddy gets on to him he comes over to me and tells me "daddy heart my feelings"
-He loves trains, plains and buses like nothing else.
-Mighty machines is his favorite show
-He started calling oatmeal "oatmeal"...except for his healthy oatmeal he still calls it "oatmuck".
-He still likes to sit on the kitchen floor for his eggs and oatmuck
-He LOVES taking vitamins "like a big boy" with a medicine cup instead of dropper
-He loves his Denver..."DENBUH"....but hates sharing toys with him
-He is still a super scairdy-cat for everything fun and exciting
-He hates daddy's blower
-We got him to get excited about the carwash finally!
-When the garage door opens and daddy is home, he yells "DADDY'S HOME" every-single-time.
-He can dress him self for the most part now, and INSISTS on it.
-He likes coffee like his big brothers do

I think that's it.  He loves to tell stories and he's always yelling "mommy watch".  Jetty, you are such a joy to daddy and I.  I love you.

My Denver James is 9 months

Denver James is a little more than 9 months old and boy has he brought crazy amounts of joy to this family!  He is crawling, eating normal food and WAIVING when said "hi" to!  So precious.  

He scrunched up his nose and grins from ear to ear when he's excited to see you.  He is still not super nuts about his paci, but will take it if needed.  He's having to learn to like eggs and avocado...my staple baby foods.  He puts EVERYTHING in his mouth and oh does he love his family.  He's also pulling up on whatever he can too!

I absolutely adore this baby.  

Denver James

You are 7 months old my Denver James. Oh my goodness, how we all love you so much.  You are happy happy happy and you love everyone you meet.  You have no teeth and don't eat table food, though you look like you want to eat whatever we have.  You sit up great and look like you want to crawl- so we will see if you are earlier at crawling than the others!  You babble "bababababababa", which is SO cute.  You have all of the sudden been not so excited about your paci and that's devastating to me.  Hopefully you fall back in love with that thing.  You love Sancho and Abby- you seem to be a dare devil (daddy loves to play like he's throwing you up in the air and you think it's so great!).  You love to bounce- therefore you love anyone or thing that helps you bounce!

Oh Denver James- I love you so so much- you bring so much joy to us.

Jett E. Pants

Jett just turned 2 in July- what is he up to?

-he talks non.stop.  The kid repeats, remembers and knows how to say just about everything

- he looooves fire trucks, helicopters, airplanes, and a good BUUUUUUUUUUUS (he says it just like that too)

-he does not like adventure...if it's loud, exciting or super fun?  He won't like it.  It takes SERIOUSLY encouragement to get him to do it.  Today I could barely get him to go outside and play in the rain!!!

- he loves "oatmuck" and eggs for breakfast.

-he loves to read books

I'm sure I have more funny facts- I'll add them as I remember them.  I love you Jett E....you bring so much laughter and FUN to life.