Today- I had Beckham in his bouncy seat and I was just staring at him...my sweet little innocent baby boy- who is so in love with mommy right now...everywhere I walk, he watches me, anytime I look at him and start talking his eyes stare into my soul...I can make him laugh and smile with the littlest things...one day he will be a grown boy...and then a grown man. I then looked over at my precious Parker, who also loves his mommy and loves to sit by me and loves to play with me...who sat next to me on the couch and shared an apple while we watched TV...he will be grown up too. As wonderful as that is- and as wonderful as my life will still be- I can't help but to get a lump in my throat and an ache in my chest to think this sweet wonderful stage will no longer be here. They will not be "in love" with mommy the way they are now and their little innocent excitement will no longer be there. Tonight, Blake was blowing off the driveway and Parker, Beckham and I were in the kitchen working on dinner- when I heard the blower, I got Parker and we rushed out to the garage...the minute Parker laid eyes on daddy's blower, he rushed over to his truck, frantically (and I mean FRANTICALLY) reaching for his toy blower so he could go blow the driveway off with daddy. It was the most sweet and precious sight I have ever seen. He was SO excited to finally get to use his blower with daddy's REAL blower...it was the real deal!!!!
I can't imagine my life without these little thrills. I can't imagine not getting to explore life everyday with my little boys and their excitement for everything. I am not promised tomorrow, therefore I CHERISH today...I cherish my boys as little boys who still find mommy exciting and still look at me with those lovey eyes. I cherish the fact that I can still hold Parker in my lap and read books to him at night in his rocking chair, and I cherish the fact that Beckham follows me with his eyes and gives me such loving stares. I cherish that I am "mommy" still and not "mom"...I love that Parker still reaches for me to hold him and loves to sit on the counter while I cook. Oh the list could go on and on....I love my boys...I love being their mommy and though the thought of them growing up makes me tear up- I am glad I thought about it, because once again...it made me cherish today.
In Dee Forrest****** I am a mommy to four wonderful little boys. I love my role and want to remember every little detail of the days that I get to spend with them as a stay-at-home mommy. I am a homeschooling momma with a husband who is working full time along with full time seminary. This blog is to help me work through the daily, but mainly, it's to help me remember precious little moments that I never want to forget and cherish forever!
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