Update on my babies...

I always know when it's time to blog, because I start to get a burden on my heart...sounds cheesy I know...but I start feeling a little bit of panic that I am letting too many precious things about my lovies go by and will forget them before I write them down.  Well, it's 11:07pm....definitely bed time and as I crawled into bed all cozied up, my eyes popped open and I had to get out of bed to let my heart overflow onto paper.  So here we are...

This season, this period of my motherhood is quite exhausting.  I find myself feeling the "servant-hood" of motherhood more and more every day.  From the moment my boys' feet hit the ground they are asking for juice, food, a toy, help, comfort, more, and the list goes on.  I'm sure it might be a little easier if they calmly and politely with full and complete patience asked for what they wanted, but instead I find myself be either cried at or ordered....'JUICE!!!!!!!'.  The exhausting part is the constant training, training, training...."Parker, that is not how you ask nicely, please repeat that in a nice way"...."Beckham, it's ok, you don't have to scream and cry because you can't reach your cup, just say 'help, momma'", etc etc.  However, the other day I was sitting on the driveway, relishing in watching my precious boys play, and I was reminded...this is motherhood...this is what God has called me to and has BLESSED me with...there is never going to be a time when I sit back and say...this is easy stuff...piece of cake...nope, it's constant...training and shepherding my children's' hearts towards our Almighty God.   It IS service...it IS work...it IS my ministry!!  How honored am I to get to be the missionary to my OWN kids...to two little boys that my heart skips a beat everytime I see them...I get to be PART of God's hand in bringing them to HIM! 

So, what do I do from here?  I remember that spending time with the Lord is TOP of my list!!!!!  I must be filled with the Spirit...in complete fellowship...so that when the frustrations of motherhood hit, my mind and attitude are FIXED on Christ so that my response to the little sin nature in my children is LOVE and CHRIST instead of MY sin nature fighting back.  I thank my God for every hard moment, because He is using that to refine me, molding me to be more like Christ.  I focus on Christ and moving forward instead of my mistakes and mess ups...those are in the past..leave them there! 

Thank you Father...thank you that you give me so many teachable moments to just grow in the knowledge of truth!  Thank you that you love me enough to continue to make me into the woman you want me to be....constantly being so faithful to me, though my faithfulness does not match.


SO, what are my precious babies up to these days?

Parker and Beckham are now starting to play together and LOVE-EACH-OTHER.  Parker has gotten to be such a PRECIOUS big brother...constantly caring for Beckham and making sure he's happy and playing with him.  It's beautiful.  NOT to say, they don't have their terrible moments, where Parker pushes Beckham down and then stands on top of him, laughing while poor Beckham is screaming....ugh!  :)

Beckham and I have two secret "languages".  We make these specific babble noises while using our hands like we are having a real conversation.  We count in this language too and it's quite entertaining.

Beckham is sloooowly starting to talk.  We had him evaluated by ECI two months ago and he did FABULOUS in ever area except for expressive language.  He didn't qualify for therapy though, so we are just 'naming' everything and encouraging language.  It's slowing starting to work.  Today, he was pushing his bubble mower and when the bubbles came out he would shout..."whoooooooa, bubba's!!!!!"  :)

Parker, my sweet booger bear, talks non-stop.  Literally...non-stop...if he's up and awake...he-is-talking!  It's so fun, though, because now I truly feel like we have a relationship.  Sometimes when I put him to bed he will ask if we can talk, so I will lay next to him and we will, face-to-face, just talk.  Some of my FAVORITE times.

Beckham....my lovie bear boo...oh, that boy, I love him so much...he is such a mess...but lately he has been extra lovey!  He will rub his hands over my hair and will just randomly come up and hug me and kiss me....thrills my heart.  He still loves to be rocked and night, which, well, I'm in heaven over.

They both LOVE the dogs...especially when we take the dogs in the car with us.  They both want to hold one.  So cute, because they get so excited!

Beckham gets the "excited mouth open" look now.  LOVE that!

Parker has the official big brother power over Beckham.  All Parker has to do is excitedly ask Beckham if he wants to do something and Beckham will ALWAYS say yes...even if I had just asked him the same thing a minute before and he told me no!  ha!

I LOVE watching them on the powerwheel together.  They both will get excited about something and just look at each other and giggle and squeal.  It's SO cute how much they love each other.

Ok...I know there is more, but I am now officially exhausted!  Nighty night!