Funny new things...

Tonight, as I was reading books to Parker before bed he started to tell me when he didn't like a book by waving his hands in front of it and saying "no" and then pushing it away. It was so funny and so cute.....

What's he sayin' and doin'???

Okay- so now Parkerman is a little over 17 months old so I thought it's time to update his words (real and "parker" words) and what he's learning!

1. "Hi!!" While sweetly waving
2. "No", but really sounds like "oh" and he waves his hand in front of his body
3. "It's hot!" Even if it's cold- everything is HOT!
4. "Hiiii dada!!"
5. "Gigi"- even though we aren't sure if he knows what he is talking about as he says it a lot
6. "Zeta"- which is my sister-in-law's dog, however he is not really saying this name because he calls a lot of things Zeta and he RARELY sees Zeta.
7. "Eat"
8. "Uh-oh"
9. "Ma ma" & "da da"
10. "Wha-duh?"
11. What a choo choo train says
12. What a ducky says
13. "1...2....3!!!!" (really sounds like uhh, duhh, EEEE!!!!)
14. What a puppy dog says
15. "Cheese!!!!!"
16. "Shoe"
17. "Shuuh??" as he points at everything


He has also learned in the past months:
-To open doors
-Use a spoon
-Use sign language for "more" and "milk"
-He knows how to open the dog kennel
-Give kisses and hugs
-Turn off and on the water
-Where to go to "get his hair done" (bathroom- as we spike his hair up with gel now :) )
-When I tell him to go do things he goes and does them
-Put his toys away
-He had his first sessions at the Little Gym
-JUMP into the water and off of the kitchen counter into daddy's arms
-How to dance
-Who Sponge Bob Square Pants is
-Where is nose, ears, teeth, tongue, belly button, and feet are
-Where Baby Beckham is and has learned to kiss baby Beckham (in mommy's belly)
-Where airplanes are and points at them every time they fly by
-How to "dunk" the basket ball in the basket
-How to blow on his food when it's hot!

Well- I think that's a good update for what's goin' on with our little man since I updated at 14 months. As he grows and develops it gets more fun and more fun!!!!

What a wonderful morning I have had!

So this morning about 6:30 I felt like God was trying to wake me up to spend time with Him. Saturday and Sunday I overslept and by the time I woke up Parker was READY to get up and I didn't have my quiet time with the Lord first. So, today, I felt God was quietly tapping my shoulder saying..."Wake up, my love...you need me today". From bad terrible dreams to my cell phone ringing- something kept waking me up- so I finally just got up and grabbed my Bible. Ohh..it was SO good to have that time with the Lord and connecting with Him- learning and being reminded that rebellion/disobedience leads to darkness and depression because when you are with the Lord and in fellowship the utter joy and fulfillment you receive is so amazing that when you are away from it...even just two days like I was...you feel void of that joy and fulfillment! So today- before I could start my day HE filled me up with Him and reminded me that Blake nor Parker nor anyone else could fill my heart and emotional needs the way He is. One verse that really stuck in my head was Psalm 62:2 "He alone is my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress, I will never be shaken". What a beautiful picture for a "needy" wife/woman/mother as I am to read! I will NEVER BE SHAKEN!!! However, the pre-req to that is that I MUST be found in my heavenly Father's fortress! When I am there- I cannot be shaken...no amount of exhaustion or disappointment or worry can shake me! Yummy stuff I got to eat this morning!

So after that- I didn't think my day could get much better- until I heard the baby gate open to our bedroom and my smiling little happy boy running in to greet me!!! (side note- Blake had gotten up and gotten him out of bed :) ) Then after breakfast Parker had grabbed the laundry basket so we played with that as he would turn it over and JUMP off onto the couch! Laughing the whole time- thus I was laughing the whole time! Then we put Sancho our Boston Terrier in the laundry basket and the excitement on Parker's face when he saw me do that was priceless! So we pushed Sancho around the house in the laundry basket, Parker squealing with delight and laughing and Nika the boxer dog chasing us barking at us.....can life get any better than this??? I had a million things to do, but running around with Parker, tickling him on the couch and pushing dogs around and HIM around in the laundry basket and playing hide and seek all while getting little kisses and hugs from him paid off WAY more that my to-do list will ever! It's mornings like this that show me how mmmm mmmmm good life is!

Good Reminder

Yesterday, as I was visiting with long-time family friends one of the ladies made a comment to me. "These years (referring to Parker's age) go by a little slow, but as they start getting older it goes faster and faster....I wish I could get some of that time back, because I was too busy to notice all of the little moments". That really made an impact on my heart, because even though I cherish every single little moment, it is so easy to forget to do that on a bad day or a "grouchy" day and think that there is always tomorrow to cherish moments and tomorrow is forever away, but it's really not! I know that once little Beckham is here my life is going to speed up; my attention no longer can be given 100% to Parker. I can see that once my attention is divided it will be easy for me to lose little sweet moments while I am running in the fast lane of this new life. As I sit here typing this blog, I anticipate having to go get Parker out of his bed from his WAY too short of a nap-time. Before I started typing this, I heard him in his bed start to whine and it caught me off guard! "What??? What in the world is he doing up so early?!? I still need a little more ME time!". As I was walking to his room he quieted down and I thought...I need to stop, and come in here and type up a posting for my blog. Yes, today is a somewhat slow day, and yes, I am physically exhausted, but I now have 5-6 more hours to go spend loving on my little man and playing hard with him, before it's time for bed. These years are fleeting....there will be a time that Parker and his siblings go to school for 8 hours and I only get them on weekends and breakfast/dinner during the week and I will long for these days of spending so much time with him to come back!!

Well, he is definitely screaming now...but as I go in to get him, I have a new attitude...I am going to cherish my day and cherish watching him eat his little sandwich for lunch and go play in the sprinkler outside and I am going to cherish our alone time and the hugs and kisses I will get the rest of the day! Thank you God, for stopping me today, so that I could reflect on how beautiful of a day and beautiful of a life I have getting to be a mommy!
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Now- as I come back to this blog posting- it's the end of the day and Parker is in bed sound asleep for the night...we had a beautiful afternoon, from him helping me wash my car, to playing in the water hose, to pool time, to holding hands on the car-ride back, to mac-n-cheese, to a bubble bath together as we watched Sponge Bob Square Pants on the TV in my bathroom, to reading books, and then snuggling as Parker fell into deep sleep- today could have been long and drudging, but when I stopped and re-evaluated and realized that today is what I make it- it turned into memory after memory that filled my heart with joy.

His new sand and water toy

So we just bought Parker a sand and water toy for the patio. He is really into water and playing and digging so this was truly the perfect developmental toy for him right now. However, what I didn't realize is what I would see when I filmed him playing with it.



I saw my little boy who has about 6 or 7 words being so precious and wonderful- and then I saw my little boy at 6 or 7 who is taller and speaks clearly and is not as excited about the little things- and when I ask for kisses doesn't come running to me with his mouth wide open... and then I saw a 10 or 11 year old with an attitude and is slowly starting to lose interest in mommy...especially because he calls me "mom" now. Honestly- as excited as I am about Parker growing up- the thought of him being older and more mature made me so sad. Then, I became extremely grateful that I have him right now at this sweet precious stage and all throughout the day when a frustrated thought would come in my mind I would immediately realize that I still have him at this little man stage and I GET to enjoy him every single day!!! I GET to cherish these moments so that they don't fly by and I GET to slow my mind down and just enjoy him! Thank you God, for fast forwarding my mind to the future so that I could realize that he truly isn't going to stay this same little boy for the rest of his life and I will NEVER get these moments back with him so I need to enjoy them!!!!
Recently a mom in Kingwood had an unfortunate, TRAGIC happening after birthing a child that resulted in the amputation of her arms and legs. Though God's grace was all over her- she did have moments that made her sad such as when she realized she could never walk in the grass barefooted again. When I read that I realized that every day I take so many beautiful things for granted, like the fact that Parker and I can go play in the grass BAREFOOTED!!! Being 6 months pregnant and chasing a 16 month old around has it's tiring moments, but when I realized that Parker is at such a sweet tender stage and when I realized that I have the PHYSICAL ability to enjoy every moment with him like running and chasing him around the house and swimming and sitting in the grass and the list goes on, I realized that tired feeling goes away and is replaced with a rejuvenated excitement and GRATEFULNESS that I CAN!
I never expected that when we bought that sand and water toy- I would buy an opportunity to appreciate and cherish my time with my little boy.....and my time running barefooted in the grass with him.

All he wanted was my attention...

I was trying to type a short email...1.5 minutes on the computer...and Parker was reaching for the key board and trying so desperately to get my attention. All he wanted was my attention. Oh how I will long for that desire when he is older and could care less what I am doing. Oh how I will long for those precious little eyes to gaze at me as if I am his whole world. I would type a few words and look down at him and he would give me the biggest cheesiest grin that would steal my heart- I could see his hope that I would not be able to look away. After the "sent" key was pushed I reached down to my little boy reaching his arms up to me and grabbed him and tossed him on to my pillow-filled bed. He laughed and squealed. I jumped on the bed and bounced towards him....he laughed so hard with eyes filled with joy...all because mommy was playing with him and making his little world exciting. After a good time of playing and bouncing and laughing....I laid on the bed and watched him roll around in my pillows with glee and excitement. My heart was so filled with joy, knowing that I get to make so many more of these moments. The rest of the evening my eyes looked at him so differently. I saw my little baby, who had suddenly began to grow into a little boy, running around the house, pushing his tonka truck and his rocket ship in laps around the island, and I watched how he would take deliberate breaks to stop and look over at me to see if I was watching....when he saw my eyes and the huge smile on my face he would run over to me- "talk" to me and then run back to what he was doing. I realized that at any moment his infatuation with me could lessen. It is so easy at this stage in parenthood to wish away the dependence upon me to independence of me....and I still desire for my little boy to grow into an independent man- however, when I remind myself of the brevity of these special moments and of the special love my little man has for ME- I cherish them....I'll never know when the last moment will pass where "all he wanted was my attention..."

Laughing...so good for the soul!

Tonight- on our way home from Galveston I would periodically gaze in the rear view mirror to see what my little man was doing in his car seat. For the first 45 minutes I would see him staring out the window with his monkey blanket snug in his arms and his eye lids looking as though they could drift off. However, the last rear view mirror check, I saw my sweet sunshine gazing at ME! So because he brings so much joy to my heart- my first reaction was to smile sweetly at him. He immediately smiled back at me....well, needless to say, I was glad there weren't a lot of people driving on those back roads, because I was HOOKED! I would look away and then JERK my eyes back to look at him...he laughed so hard he got the hick-ups....I in return laughed and laughed....then he would laugh and laugh- we spent the next few minutes just laughing with each other! The thoughts were running through my mind that it was so precious that all I had to do was blink weird and Parker would laugh...to him, I am one of the more funnier people in his world! (Daddy is THE most funny of course). How easy it is to make him laugh and because his laugh is SO contagious I get to laugh...HARD! Once we got home it was time for my love to go to bed so we went in his room and he let me have another rare moment of rocking him. He laid in the crook of my arm and we just stared at each other- dead in the eye. We had a few more moments of laughter and then we were quiet...just being with each other...enjoying each other. Tomorrow, I go get to find out what my baby #2 is going to be...girl, boy, girl, boy??? I am SO excited! However, I can't help but begin to project what life will be like once I am a mom to not just Parker. As I sit here typing those words, tears are welling up in my eyes...I can't just give HIM all of me anymore...how can I possibly love another baby as much as my little Parkerman...what will this life be like? Ugh...it can be such an emotional roller-coaster, but I know that several things are true....1. I serve a sovereign God who decided it was time for me to conceive...2. I love my little man with all of my heart and nothing could change that...3. I will more than likely fall just as much in love with baby #2 as my sweet baby #1 and will love having my heart expand to include my son or daughter!

So, tonight- as I head off to my bed, I will make a point to not get caught up in what is going to happen in 4 months...instead, I will cherish my moments of laughter with my only child.

Laughing....so good for the soul!