Things I loved about today...

-I loved letting Parker "ride mommy's back" around the living room after dinner.
-I loved getting to rough house with Beckham for the first time!!
-I loved getting to rock Beckham and sing to him while we stared into each other's eyes until his eyes finally got too heavy to hold open
-I loved getting to excitedly ask Parker if he wanted chocolate cake and him getting just as excited saying YA!!!!!
-I loved it when Beckham brings me a book and wants me to read it to him...yet wants it back after I have only read 2 pages!
-I love it when Beckham brings me the Star Wars lightsaber toy and wants me to open it for him and gets SOOO super excited when I do!
-I loved listening to Parker pray before bed..."Dear God, tanktou my go night-night...eh-eh-eh...tanktou mommy go night night...eh-eh-eh...tanktou bubba go night-night...eh-eh-eh...tanktou mommy daddy go night night....eh-eh-eh....ABEN!!!" and before dinner..."Dear God, tanktou for my pood (food), tanktou for mommy's pood, tanktou for bubba's pood, eh-eh-eh....ABEN!!!!!"
-I loved watching Parker and Beckham pushing their lawn mowers around the front yard....it's SOOOOO cute
-I loved having Parker ask me to rock him tonight and just getting to rock this big almost 3 year old...he's so big and so FUN to get and try and cuddle with in his rocking chair...I LOVE IT
-I love that my boys want to be with me....I love that they would MUCH rather be with me (and daddy too of course) than anyone else...it is really easy to get frustrated when they scream and cry when I leave them with childcare at church or at the gym, etc...but ya know? When they are old and could care less about being with me- I am going to miss these days!!!

I am in the middle of cooking dinner for Blake and I...the boys are in bed....and I had to stop and write this down...my heart is so FULL and I needed to get it out before I forgot! I love this life! :)

Boring post

So, if anyone reads this post, you might just save the time and move on! ha! I was cleaning out a drawer in my kitchen and I found written instructions for a babysitter when Parker was around 2 and Beckham around 4 or 5 months old. It was fun for me to read it, because in just 6 or 7 months so much changes! Anyways, it's boring for anyone but ME to read, so sorry! I just needed to blog it so that when I go back and read I can enjoy remembering their little schedules :)

Parker:
After breakfast- Parker probably won't need to eat. If he stands at the fridge door or the pantry door you can give him goldfish, Nilla wafers, or a nutrigrain bar. (or whatever you see) :) If he asks for "juice"- give him his milk (green sippy with blue lid) or water. If he stands at the counter by the stove asking for something- it's a banana. He won't need a nap- you can do whatever you want. If you want to go outside & Beckham is asleep his baby monitor is on the counter by the bananas- just unplug and it has batteries & you can take it outside with you.

Beckham:
1 hour after he wakes up- he will need a nap. Put him in his swing- buckle the belt around him, give him his pacifier & get the brown blanket out of his crib & let him wrap his arms around it & snuggle his face in it. Turn swing on high- turn his box fan on high & shut door. :)
Eating:
6am- he ate
8-10am- whenever he starts grouching give him a 4 oz. bottle- if he still seams hungry after that give him another half-1 oz.
-then 2-3 hours after his bottle he will need to eat again (I might be home for this feeding)
-I will put frozen milk in the refrigerator freezer on the top shelf- just get what you need and leave the rest frozen.

I don't like this game!

So this morning Parker wanted to play on my bed- so we jumped up there and were playing and then Parker said "My go night-night"- so I said "Ok, mommy will go night-night too!!". So he got cozied up in my bed- I covered him up with my sheets, per his request, and then he got up and turned the radio and light off and got back under the covers and laid down....oh MAN!!! I was hopeful this was for real...as I laid my head down and was feeling a little piece of heaven, I hear, "WAKE-UP!!!" from Parker who had jumped up and turned the light back on and the radio back on....haha...we did this for 2 or 3 rounds....I've decided I DON'T LIKE THAT GAME! hehehe....gotta love that stinky boy!

The small things....

I'm just sitting here, sipping coffee watching my sweet boys play. I had to sit down and write this down, because I am in the moment...I wanted to remember small moments like this as they are sweet memories. They are so fun to watch because Beckham is sitting letting Nika the boxer dog lick his toy and Beckham will lean over and try and look at Nika's face...so intrigued by her and her big ugly face :). It's so fun to sit on the floor with music playing and dancing and singing with our little instruments with them. It's so fun to sit on the couch with Parker arm-to-arm with a toy and having him ask me "Is this fun, Mommy??"...Yes baby....this is so fun, spending time with you and your bubba...being silly and playing. We are doing nothing this morning...just being. It's special- I love it. OH, and before I end- Beckham ate dog poo today....it's a first- had to write it down :)

SWWEEET Moment

Today, I was doing some Bible study while the boys napped and I heard Parker's door open and then little soft foot steps and then I looked to my left and there was my sweet Parkerman standing there looking at me- he looked at me with a tentative look- and when I got a huge excited smile on my face and said "Hiiiii baby!!!!", he got a huge excited smile on his face and came over to me and wrapped his arms around my waist and just huuuuuuuuggggggged me. THAT was such an unexpected WONDERFUL moment as I am usually the one that initiates all the huggin' and kissin' and to have him just come to me and wrap his arms around my waist....OHHHH....it was heaven!!

He's 13 months

It's so funny- I sat down to write about my sweet little Beckham and realized that today he is EXACTLY 13 months! I don't take pictures anymore on his month birthday's or come blog every month, but I accidentally did it on his 13 month birthday! ha! :) Happy birthday boo bear!

We went to the ranch this past weekend and I was just watching my little bubba walk around being SOOOO busy and playing and enjoying this new little world he is in and it hit me that I am letting HIS little life fly by! Parker's life, I cherished every single little itty bitty moment- but since Beckham is the second and life will be 'easier' when he get's older I have been focused on "in a few more months life will be so much easier, etc etc etc." This past weekend I realized that THIS part of his life....THIS VERY PART...13 months is such a sweet innocent PRECIOUS time and I am letting it fly by! When Beckham is older I know without any doubt in my mind, I will miss these tender times of his childhood...that is, if I don't stop and watch and experience life with him. Suddenly it made all of the frustrations of having a 13 month, get into everything he's not supposed to, cry when I leave the room, too little to rough house with Parker but wants to and ends up getting hurt, little Beckham and turned it into pure J-O-Y! This is such a FUN part of a little child's life and I was missing it! When they walk like a mummy and when they LONG for you to spend time with them and when they look to you after doing something they are proud of! It's heaven!

Am I doing the right thing?

Every single day I wake up to be a mommy to my little pieces of heaven is another day that I have to struggle with the battle of self doubting. "Am I doing the right thing??" is what I ask myself every time I make a decision regarding my boys. Is this behavior that I should discipline for or is it just him being a kid, should I say yes or should I say no, should I be silly and goofy should I be serious and firm. You name it, I question it. Lately, the Lord has been speaking to me so much about this area of self doubt. He gave me a verse, Psalm 32:8, "I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you". Every time I read that verse it brings such strong emotion to my heart. I have come to the Lord crying out- "Father, what should I do, I don't want to make a mistake, I don't want to 'screw' my children up, I only want to do what is RIGHT and good for my children" and HE came back with "I will instruct....teach...counsel...and watch over you". HE....THE GOD OF THE UNIVERSE is going to teach, counsel and watch over me!!!! I don't have to rehearse in my mind or predict what my children are going to do and how I am going to handle it....I just have to trust and believe in my heart of hearts that the Almighty GOD is going to HIMSELF step in and teach, counsel and watch over me. Wow, what an amazing God I serve!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT AN AMAZING GOD! Then I was reading Exodus 33 and I came to verse 14 where God tells Moses, who is needing huge guidance to direct him while taking the Israelites to the Promise Land, "...My presence will go with you and I will give you rest". Wow....not only Moses am I going to make sure you get there, but MY PRESENCE will be the one to get you there...not one of my angels, not a really smart man.....ME....the ALMIGHTY GOD OF THE UNIVERSE! It spoke such huge instruction to me-that I no longer have to question what I do or what I will do, but that my GOD will come through when I need Him to.

PRAISE GOD to whom all blessings flow....praise Him all people here below...