The usual day...

Today was a usual day. Everyone got up- we had breakfast and nap-time (mommy included!!) Then once Parker got up I fixed him lunch...laughed while he played war with his gold fish...and then Parker and I went to go check the mail. This is such a sweet time for me, because it is always just Parker and I (because sweet Beckham is usually asleep) and he gets SO excited about it. When I say "let's go check the mail, Parkerman!" he goes and grabs his grocery cart and we CHARGE outside!

As we get towards the middle of the driveway we say "Stop!" and look for cars. I say "do you see any cars??" and Parker says while wailing his arms "NO CARS!!!" and we go out into the street and to the mail box. He puts the mail in his grocery cart and we go back inside. However, today we took a little detour. He parked his grocery cart and pointed out the flowers (a.k.a. weeds) in the yard. So I plopped myself down on the driveway! Parker came running up to me with these


my little weed flowers. It was so sweet- I just couldn't let myself forget it! He then sat next to me on the driveway...we just sat there enjoying the beautiful day- looking at airplanes and "talking".
Ya know...I love remembering sweet moments like these, because Parkerman is going through a stage where he just stares at me when I tell him to do something and does the opposite of what I tell him to do- and it is so easy to get frustrated with parenting- but when I stop and smell the weed flowers and see the most precious side to my crazy two year old I can't help but be SO grateful that he is in my world every minute of every day...he is such a gift and I treasure him with all of my heart! Tonight- reading books to him before bed, snuggling him in my arms...every bit of any frustration that I have with him is gone from my memory....all I see is my sweet baby boy who I would lay my life down for! What a WONDERFUL usual day! :)

To love God's word...

This morning, while spending time with my God, I began to pray for opportunities to instill a passion for God's word in my childrens' hearts and minds. With a 2 year old, I wasn't quite sure how I would do this, but I just needed to trust that God would create divine appointments for just that. I continued on with my Bible study, and in this book I am studying it talked about how one of the greatest gifts you can give your children is your time...undivided...all to themselves! So, I began my day....
Parker and I were having a fun time jumping on my bed, playing, laughing, enjoying life. When it happened...Parker pointed at Blake's Bible and said "Bible??". I said "yes, that's a Bible...that is God's word"...and then from there we spent about 20 minutes talking about God, and Jesus and the Bible. We prayed and talked some more. It was amazing....absolutely AMAZING!!! I had a little devotional with my 2 year old! God spoke to me at that point. If I had not given my child my time- undivided and intentional- I would have missed one of the most beautiful moments to instill God's word in my child. I would have missed a divine appointment with a little boy that I love more than anything in this world. I also realized that I don't have to "know" what to do to raise a godly man...all I have to do is pray and God will raise up these moments and they will be easy and beautiful- but I must make sure to give him my time, my attention and my all during the day!

PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!

Wispers sweet love....

Tonight at the dinner table, Parker and I were "talking" and I started to whisper to him just for fun...so I whispered "Parker...can you whisper?" and he would whisper back "Ya" and then I would whisper "Can you say, 'love you'"? and he would whisper back "duh do". Ohhhhhhhh....I love you too, Parkerman...more than you will ever ever EVER know.

5 monthgs ago...

5 months ago, my world went from a mother of one to a mother of two. Wow...what a new life I received. I now had this little grumpy baby that just ate, slept and cried! However, as time went on Beckham became more and more happy and precious and wonderful. Today, as he turns 5 months, I get to note all of his little qualities.

1. He is sitting up with assistance really well
2. He smiles ALL-OF-THE-TIME...if he is awake, he is smiling
3. He is soooooooooo ticklish!
4. His sleep at night is OK...could be better! :)
5. He rolls around on the floor- he can start on one side of the room and roll to the other
6. He will gladly sit in his carseat and be content
7. He sucks his thumb!!!! (soooo cute)
8. He also likes his pacifier too!
9. He thinks his mommy is soooo funny!
and # 10.....



He has stolen his mommy's heart!!!!

I love you baby boy!!!! You've made my life fuller than I could have ever imagined!

So precious....

When Beckham wakes up from his nap (in his swing) Parker and I go into his room...I say "HI BECKHAM!!!", then Parker gets nose to nose with Beckham and says "HI DEEE....HIIII....HI DEEEE....HI" (then proceeds to tickle him and say HI all over again). It's the cutest most precious sight!! I love these moments and don't ever want to forget them!

A feeling I can't describe...

Tonight as I was rocking Beckham to sleep he was just staring into my eyes...so content...so sweet. The love I have for this new baby of mine is unexplainable...so wonderful....so fulfilling.

The thought of them growing up...

Today- I had Beckham in his bouncy seat and I was just staring at him...my sweet little innocent baby boy- who is so in love with mommy right now...everywhere I walk, he watches me, anytime I look at him and start talking his eyes stare into my soul...I can make him laugh and smile with the littlest things...one day he will be a grown boy...and then a grown man. I then looked over at my precious Parker, who also loves his mommy and loves to sit by me and loves to play with me...who sat next to me on the couch and shared an apple while we watched TV...he will be grown up too. As wonderful as that is- and as wonderful as my life will still be- I can't help but to get a lump in my throat and an ache in my chest to think this sweet wonderful stage will no longer be here. They will not be "in love" with mommy the way they are now and their little innocent excitement will no longer be there. Tonight, Blake was blowing off the driveway and Parker, Beckham and I were in the kitchen working on dinner- when I heard the blower, I got Parker and we rushed out to the garage...the minute Parker laid eyes on daddy's blower, he rushed over to his truck, frantically (and I mean FRANTICALLY) reaching for his toy blower so he could go blow the driveway off with daddy. It was the most sweet and precious sight I have ever seen. He was SO excited to finally get to use his blower with daddy's REAL blower...it was the real deal!!!!



I can't imagine my life without these little thrills. I can't imagine not getting to explore life everyday with my little boys and their excitement for everything. I am not promised tomorrow, therefore I CHERISH today...I cherish my boys as little boys who still find mommy exciting and still look at me with those lovey eyes. I cherish the fact that I can still hold Parker in my lap and read books to him at night in his rocking chair, and I cherish the fact that Beckham follows me with his eyes and gives me such loving stares. I cherish that I am "mommy" still and not "mom"...I love that Parker still reaches for me to hold him and loves to sit on the counter while I cook. Oh the list could go on and on....I love my boys...I love being their mommy and though the thought of them growing up makes me tear up- I am glad I thought about it, because once again...it made me cherish today.