Nights like this, I cherish....

They finally finished their last bite of food which meant they could run outside and see the Christmas lights daddy had been working on!  "Mommy....LOOK...!!!!!!!!" was what I could hear from outside on the driveway..."mommy....come HERE...LOOK!!!!"...."this is so awesome!!!!".  My sweet little Parkerman....so incredibly excited that we had Christmas lights on our house.  THEN, came the best part...the large, lit, inflatable penguin!!  Parker...and therefore Beckham now, were running around like crazy men yelling and screaming in utter blissful JOY that this massive penguin was being 

 inflated on our lawn.  "It's CHRISTMAS!!!", Parker screamed!!  The excitement and JOY that my boys experienced tonight was heaven for me!  After bath time, Parker just HAD to come back outside and say goodnight to the penguin.  So when we did, we sat on the lawn, both boys in my lap, RIGHT in front of our new found friend and sang Christmas songs and hymns...just basking in the fun of our new decor!  I will cherish every-single-night of this holiday season, because I KNOW that this excitement over an inflatable penguin will not last...I know one day, they will not want to run outside and see daddy's hard work on Christmas lights and yearn for me to share in the excitement with them.  I know that this is a season...but it's a beautiful one, a special one and one that I am so so grateful for.  Father, thank you for giving me tonight...thank you for this honor and JOY of raising my children...thank you for reminding me that life is fleeting so when I get moments like tonight...I will cherish them...

 

He brought my blankey...

My sweet little boo bear is such a love bug!  He is my snuggler and so loving!  So, today, Parker was trying to be playful and shot me point blank...about 8 inches away...directly in the eye with a nurf gun that has serious power to it!  Well, let's just say, it brought me to tears...I couldn't help it...crying...Parker and Beckham both didn't know what to do, obviously disturbed by mommy crying and so Beckham in the pit of desperation to make mommy happy went and got the blanket, I always cover up on the couch with, and brought it to me...why would he do that, you ask????  Because when Beckham is upset, all he wants is his blankey...it's a comfort to him and he stops crying.  The sweetest thing in the whole world?!?!?!  He brought me what he thought was MY blankey!  Well, it worked...through all of my tears, I started laughing so hard and smiling (and still crying, ha!).  I love you sweet boo bear...I love that you wanted to help momma, and comfort me...you are my little sunshine!

My boys are so fun

My little boys are growing up and we are getting to a fun stage in life.  We have so much fun together.  I love them so much, my heart hurts :)  Tonight, Blake was putting the boys to bed...now, let's be clear...my boys L-O-V-E their daddy with a capital L-O-V-E!!!!  But almost everytime we say daddy is putting them to bed, Parker always says, "I want mommy to put me to bed".  Those words just warm my heart (only because I know they TRULY ADORE their daddy...so I don't worry about Blake getting his feelings hurt :)).  Anyways, every night, after we read books I rock Beckham and hug and kiss on him and put him to bed and then Parker asks me if I will rock him.  It's so incredibly precious, I can't turn him down.  I rock him and we talk and sing and I hug and kiss on him and then put him in bed where we pray.  Then I have to pray with Beckham and then Parker always yells, "WAIT, mommy!!  I have to give you hugs and kisses!!!"- and I get down and he huuuuugs my neck and kisses me and we tell each other we love each other.  Can this get any better!?!?!?!?  Ohhhh I love my boys.  I love being their mommy and I love how much your heart overflows with love for two little people that God blessed me with.

One of my faves...

Recently one of our new routines is that after dinner we sit on the couch, Parker, Me, and Beckham side by side under a blanket and eat M&M's together and watch cartoons.  I absolutely LOVE this little routine...they LOVE it too.  After I clean the kitchen up, they run and get their bowls and I fill them with a little bit of M&M's and we run to the couch.  I love it.

Parkerman update

My Parkerman...I love you...here are some reminders of cute things you do:

Mommy: "Parker, why are you being such a winey hiney??"  Parker: "because when I wake up I AM a winey hiney!" (Said in a winey voice after waking up from a nap)

You laughs every time we discuss Mr. Pink the cat being a boy and having a weiner!!  Haha

You tell me to "sit right here and watch me" while you play.  :). I really love it when you do that!  I really love watching you to play

Every time I'm about to leave yours and bubbas room at night you yell "wait mommy!!!  I need to give you kisses and hugs!!!"

When we watch movies together, you tell me every single thing that is going on..."watch mommy, ......."

You are so sweet to bubba...you wanted to help me cook tonight...which I looooved....and you always invite bubba to come help, and you show him what to do!

After dinner when we were getting our m&ms to go sit on the couch to watch tv,  you told me not to give you too many m&ms so that we wouldn't run out...lol...not many kids would say that!

You still like to be rocked too...and as I sing out usual songs...you sing right along.  I'll love you forever, blessed assurance, amazing grace, when I survey the wondrous cross, and I'll fly away.  :)

Tonight, during bath time, I said, I love you, and you said I love you too...the. I said I love you more and you said "I love you more too"...and we went back and forth...Sooo sweet to my heart

Booger bear...I love you so much, my heart hurts!!  :)

Boo update

Beckham....my little boo...what's he up to?

1.  The other day I was hugging on him and he would put his face in my arm and was blowing farts!  So cute!!
2.  He puts his finger to his mouth and says "shhhhh"
3.  The other day he was sitting at the table and had three soppy cups, he proceeded to line them up and then look SO proud of himself!!!  Soo cute!
4.  When he wants to ride on your shoulders, he will pat your head and say "a-DUHH???"
5.  Now at night he will sit up in bed and when I say night night, he will wave and say "dight, dight", then he will reach over his top bunk and try to shut the door.
6.  He will also reach for your hand now to pray before you leave for bed.
7.  Tonight after books, rocking, many kisses and hugs....I said good night and shut the door...I heard him crying so when I went in to check on him all he wanted was one more kiss...I kissed him and he laid down and went to sleep.
8.  Speaking of night time...he is a snuggle bug...loves to be rocked and snuggled with!
9.  When he wants to kiss me, he will put both hands on my face, turn my head and plant one on me and not let go till he's ready!!!  Hahaha....loooooove loooove it!!!!
10.  Only has about 22 words.  And its been in the past month that he started saying about half of them!  He's starting to take off!!   Had to take him today for a speech therapy evaluation...hopefully God provides the money for it!!!  So, the only words he has are:

1. Mama
2. Dada
3. Uh-oh
4. Whoa
5. Oh!
6. Ya!
7. No
8. Tractor
9. Choo choo (what he calls the train)
10. Turtle
11. Poo poo
12. Bye bye
13.  Ball
14.  Night night
15.  Out
16.  Hot
17.  Go???  (Where did it go? With hands held out)
18.  Bubbles
19.  Outside
20.  More
21. Duck duck goose
22. Sancho
23.  On
24. Animal noises :)

That's it!  My little boo update.  Looooove that snuggle bug so sooooo much!!!!!

He is two....my boo is two :)

This time, two years ago, I was sitting in a hospital bed feeling like this....

I was SUPPOSED to go to my 10 year class reunion on October 9th with Blake...we had childcare arranged for Parker and Beckham was scheduled to arrive on October 11th.  Ok...it's all good!  WELL, did God have other plans or what!  Blake and I were sitting on the couch, eating pizza, watching a movie, when Beckham gave one last kick and broke my water.  It wasn't enough water for me to know right away, but it was enough for me to call the nurse and decide we should go in.  I was so scared....SO SCARED...I was scared that I would throw up my whole dinner on the operating table (truly...the whole time I'm crying, thinking for sure I'm going to throw up)!   But the thing I was the most terrified about was not being able to love anyone as much as I loved my sweet Parkerman.  He was my world, and every time I thought about having to open my heart to another child...tears ran down my face. (This is my blog posting that I wrote on October 7th...to Parker...not realizing THAT NIGHT I would go into labor.  This will give insight to exactly HOW scared I was about it   http://www.indeeforrest.blogspot.com/2010/10/my-sweet-parker.html )

On October 8th at 12:26am, Beckham was pulled out of my stomach...barely crying (had lots of fluid in his tiny lungs, SO incredibly scary, but luckily got him healthy before I realized what was happening)...but healthy 9.8oz.  They gave him to me.  He was perfect.  He was my little precious baby, whom I immediately fell in love with. 

For the first several months of his life, it was difficult for me...he cried all-of-the-time, and I wasn't able to truly spend time with Parker the way I so desperately needed, but I knew it would get better...I knew life would ease up and my heart would embrace two...fully. 

Well, oh did it ever.  My little boo bear...from the time of his first smile, to now...me sitting here thinking about his little life...I fall in love with him more and more every day. 

Beckham- I love you so much my heart feels like it will explode.  I love how snuggly and lovey you are.  I love that you STILL...even at 2...love to be rocked at night.  I love how you try so desperately hard to hold full length conversations, without using one "real" word.  I love listening to you sing songs, I love how you play like you are asleep in your carseat when I get out to get you, I love how you will give Parker WHATEVER he asks you for (most of the time :)), I love that you can body slam Parker better than any MMA fighter.  I love that you will get in my face and plant the biggest, sloppiest kiss...and just sit there till I can't breathe any more.  I love it when you want me to hold your hand when we are walking to make you feel secure.  I love how you will eat anything and everything I put in front of you.  I love how you look when you give me your pouty face cry.  I love how you are like ME inside and out.  I just love you so so so much.  Everyday that I get to be your mommy is heaven.  Every day that I get to snuggle with you and love on you is heaven.  I thank my God for you...I thank God, that two years ago, I got the opportunity to open my heart from loving just one, to loving two.  I didn't know what I was missing till I met you :) 

I love you baby boy...happy two year old birthday!